October 2005

So I've been on a little roll.

He stood up; she turned over and sobbed silently.

Life is long enough to satisfy curiosity.

Anyone care to elaborate?

Got it from the Singaporean/Malaysian blogosphere (Mr Brown and Kenny Sia have both written entries on this theme. "I am that blogger..

. who are you?").

Joel aka BigFuck aka RamboTan .
Anyway I thought I'd force myself to discipline my writing a little bit today (plus dad is out of office haha!) So here goes (slightly edited for better flow).

I am that girl who would wish upon a star for romance. I am that girl who decided romance was daily living.
I am that girl who fears taking luxury for granted.

I am that girl who craves for the very illusions she deprives herself of.
I am that girl who craves attention. I am that girl who shies away from the spotlight.

I am that girl who dreams California. I am that girl who lives New York.
I am that girl who wants to shine like a beacon into the future.

I am that girl who stops herself.
I am that girl that girlfriends cherish. I am that girl that boys do not value.

I am that girl who plays the dating game with you. i am that girl who loses all the time.
I am that girl who gives you an arch look over the crowd.

I am that girl who turns away.
I am that girl who lets you walk all over her. I am that girl who will stop you one day.

I am that girl who makes you hate her to test your love. I am that girl who unfortunately, has to fail you.
I am that girl who asked for love in any form possible.

I am that girl who is cheated, because you have nothing. to give.
I am that girl who scares you with her sex appeal.

I am that girl who wishes you wouldnt be.
I am that girl you cannot imagine spending the rest of your life with. I am that girl who makes sure she loves herself enough to only make you believe she needed you.

I am that girl who lets you leave. I am that girl who cries her pain into repression.
I am that girl who believes in you and her more than you do.

I am that girl who walks away.
I am that girl who recognises maya. I am that girl who drowns herself in it daily.

I am that girl who wants to believe. I am that girl who is scared to start.
I am that girl.

Who are you?

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Another cool meme is . I found the concept through who also writes on .

Which I think looks like a cool site for brown people (meaning the South Asian Diaspora). It's basically about writing a story in 55 words. Isn't that cool!

Let me attempt the bit I wrote two entries down in 55 words.

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WOOHOO!!

! Here it is! Damn, precis is hard!

I was vacillating 5 times between 54 and 56 words and had to change the entire sense of the passage to get it down!

They stood across the bar. They knew that each had seen the other.

His glaring physical imperfections stunned her. Each pretended to be enjoying themselves as she walked past him with a toss of her head, a sway of her hips and a smile, noticing, with surprise, that she had managed to preserve her dignity.

Well, what do you think?

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. this day has passed simply editing my posts and doing nonsense! But it's good to have days like that once in a while.

So here is a link about procrastination - Im sure all of us have undergone a process similar to this during college at least if not at work! Teeheehee.

Min Jung Kim has a lovely entry on the .

I'm on stage 2. Up next..

. stats whore! Heeheehee!

Looking forward to it in a year or so (If I manage to sustain my attention span long enough!

Andrew Sullivan does an excellent article on blogging as the .

Textrapolis writes a thats so funny!

I'm going to attempt one of my own soon!

(Ive picked up all of the above links from Mr. Brown.

Yup, i take the plagiarism lesson Uni of Bath tried to hammer into our collective heads pretty seriously! Give credit where credit is due yaar!)

Seriously though, (and this is something that had hindered me from starting a blog earlier) it's really scary that even one's blog cannot be a personal space for ranting, bitching, airong controversial views or dirty laundry etc.

While there are sites such as for secret horrible writing, its amazing how even something remotely controversial, but not shocking, can become misconstrued in a society that claims to be becoming freer and freer/ its ironic how with every step forward we seem to be taking a couple of very important steps back, though at different levels. Mr Brown, mentioned that . I mean, give me a break, its not like this is the first time its happened, the only difference is there's EVIDENCE if its published online!

What bullshit is that? Mr. Brown also writes that !

What someone does in their private lives should not be relevant to the part of their life that they are considered to be role models for! This is a stand Im taking that is very different from one I held a few years ago. Bill Clinton, while a lascivious cheat, was a good politician.

Regard him as your role model for a good politician, but not for a faithful husband. Gandhiji was almost single-handedly repsonsible for creating our nation, but gave his family many problems with his views, leading his eldest son to hate him and convert to Islam, away from the religion his father cherished. Rather than bitching about how you dont respect a man who sacrificed his personal life for a calling he deemed greater, give him credit where credit is due and look to someone else for guidance in your personal life.

You cannot disregard a person completely simply because of an aspect or two that you dont like about them. Where's the objectivity? We are all human; no one's completely good or bad!

Each one of us has a major failing that affects an important aspect of our lives, and at the same time, each one of us has qualities that have serious potential to posituvely affect people! It just depends which ones each of us wants to focus on!

Yes, I dont want my clients or associates or unknown peers to form one-sided opinions of me.

But each depends on each one's personal perspective.

OKay thats it for now. Catch ya later!